I think I experienced crisis of confident easily now. It's easy to provoke my bad mood. What a bad feeling! I was frustated and disapointed with myself. Why can I just like people who busy with their skill and sometimes can produce money from it. Why do they can easily get a good job? Why can't I have some skills which very useful? or at least I can use it for me and my people's better life?
Painting might be a mediator to make me become a sensitive person, but it could heal me from bad feelings or situation. I miss my imagination fulfills my head and entertains me. But thanks God to make music let my feelings out, without afraid hurting people or make people bored with my story (although prayer is the most potent drug). By the way, I love:
- Long Gone and Moved On - The Script
- Not Myself - John Mayer
- Valerie - Bruno Mars/Amy Winehouse
Sometimes people cannot accept the love I mean, or maybe they even do not appreciate it. Or the worst is..my way to give this love is wrong. I just wanna be right sometime(and I wanna be loved as always). I think I'll start painting something now :]
